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BLACK BOOK INTERVIEW SEPTEMBER 2009
How did you and Tony come to collaborate together?
We’ve know each other for eight or so years, and we started hanging out everyday a couple years ago, Brain storming for hours in my small Valley Village cardboard box. And one thing lead to the next, and we started co-producing and starring in a feature film together called One Lucky S.O.B. that’s going to be directed by Betty Kaplan...It’s loosely based on some of my experiences when I first moved to Los Angeles. As you know, producing a dark independent feature film in Hollywood is a grueling process. It’s never ending. Everyone hates you and no one invites you to Thanksgiving dinner until after it’s in the can. As we;re waiting for that to be greenlit, we started investigating the possibility of having a show of my paintings and Tony’s photo’s at Ghetto Gloss gallery in L.A. That led to collaborating on the same canvass and leaving the ego in the closet so to speak.
What is the inspiration behind your work?
Life, death, sex, re-birth and the meaning of why we are here. What we feel and what we think and the juxtapose of that combined on one work or art. Living lives with many masks on. The art brings us back to being flesh and bone.
one foot in the grave and one flying angry fist in the hope of living forever in truth. The hilarity of heartbreak. Tradition, Family, heritage and the DNA of our ancestors that lives in all of us. My sister inspires me. Tony inspires me. Gerard Rudolf inspires me. The great American dream inspires me. When life gives you lemons, you paint that shit gold. Not being an underdog, but an archetype. Shakespeare!
What do you like art wise?
Francis Bacon, The Thundercats, Early French Graffiti. Caveman art. Herman Brood, Diego Rivera, Marlon Brando...(even though Tony told him that he was a fat ass and he couldn’t hurt him). Oscar the Grouch. Shakespeare!
Does anything else come into play? Like music, fashion, street art, etc?
Everything influences me and nothing influences me. I am a an old dusty am radio looking for a channel that’s not fucking static y. Quieting heroin influenced me. Being able to express my feeling and inspiring others to do so inspire me. Being in the moment. Music inspires me most of all..From The Carpenters to Black Flag. Bob Dylan to The Ghetto Boyz. I like Levis Jeans & Calvin Klein underwear. Shakespeare!
Tell me about how your acting and modeling has influenced you, if at all and how do you balance all these things so well?
I have a lot of time on my hands...No: none of that really influences my painting..I was was just tired of eating Top Ramon with Ketchup. I needed another gimmick. I can’t even balance my checkbook.Acting is in my blood and painting is my groin. I have no choice but to listen to what my body tells me. I hope Hollywood catches up. I find Hollywood very racist and close minded. I’m lucky if I get a job where I don’t play a Mexican Junkie pimp male hustler doorman serial killer gang member. Come on, Steven Spielberg, I am also a Jew from the upper east side of New York! There are some amazing open minded people that hire me here that can see past my last name..But those movies are usually low budget. And I continue eating Top Ramen.
What is coming up in the future for you are wise, acting-wise?
Tony & I are developing a TV show on our art and our relationship. It’s going to be sort of reality and semi-scripted. “Jackass”, “Curb Your Enthusiasm” meets fine art...But better. We have been currently filming that in LA and New York. It’s being pitched to the networks in September.
What do you do in your down time or are you always working and creating?
I always work and create and think of new hustles. Even in my dreams. I don’t know how to have down time in my mind. I can’t live like them. What is down time? Getting drunk at a lame Hollywood night club and banging a million of chicks with daddy issues, give me a break. Only bored people are boring. I am just reacting. Blow anybody?
Sunday, September 13, 2009
FILLER: brand-new online fashion magazine!
Just published: the new FILLER, edition no. one, Sept 2009
While Tony Ward and Daniel Louis Rivas were waiting for their independent film, One Lucky S.O.B., to get green lit, they started investigating other creative avenues. Daniel, a painter for many years, knew Tony had been keenly involved in art and photography, so he arranged for them to have a show. Herewith is an artistic conversation of loud proportions: How has the experience of painting helped you make any sense of life? |
DANIEL: I try and stay in the moment. It’s the connection in all things living & non-living that makes up the vaults in our mind. You don’t want to hold on to the perfect moment forever. It’s letting it go that gives this its real value. We are just documenting the experience of existence. We were here, trust me. |
TONY: Doing these paintings is like a swift kick in the balls that sucks your breath away. I am a mad person when I paint, when I create. I want to shove my cock into LIFE and fuck the daylights out of it and serve it up on a tray for the world to gaze upon! |
TONY: Danny is faster than me at doing his thing. I am much slower and have to meditate and find the images in my mind, and then I am so damn anal about my technical and how I will achieve a specific image in my mind onto the canvas. I was never schooled for painting so every time I step to the canvas I am giving myself a great challenge, like realistic cadaver parts, reptiles, or, of late, a giant Dodo bird. DANIEL: Painting on a canvas is a moment and passing feeling that you have to act on, or it forever vanishes. I am an action painter. TONY: We are two totally different humans. He uses mainly one brush, his favourite, I need many, and have lots, and I am always complaining I need more. He jerks off fast, I jerk it slowly, methodically. He attacks the canvas, I stare at it, stare it down hard! You got to paint over one another’s work. How did you handle the emotions? DANIEL: That’s when the ego has to take a backseat to creation and revelation. At first, it was frustrating, but I’ve learned to accept and trust this experiment of ours will reveal more truth in the end. I pace a lot when it’s Tony’s turn at the canvas, or I take a nap, and hold my breath and pray for the best. TONY: I got over it, especially because it’s mostly me doing the over-painting and him pacing around behind me. Now, I just don’t give a shit. I think it shifted to “what-the-fuck-ever!” when Danny varnished over one of the paintings I particularly loved with a dirty brush and fucked the motherfucking painting up. That has become a part of the art now. DANIEL: Sometimes it’s like birth or rebirth, and sometimes it’s like going to the dentist. But having the dentist be a really rad, hot chick with double D’s and thick extraterrestrial lips. |
You definitely have some distinct approaches to the canvas. DANIEL: I am trying to shed the lizard skin and become the man I was meant to be, putting the pain back in painting. TONY: Everything kind of disappears when I paint—just a brush, colour, and sweat dripping down my forehead into my eyes. I want to believe I can do anything; as a matter of fact, I know there is nothing creative that I cannot do. I just have to wrap my mind around it and step to it! Is the collaboration why your paintings often explore the notion of identity? TONY: Identity is liquid, gaseous, vapour trails, it’s perfect like that. Like a smelly wet fart! If I am trying to say anything in my art, it’s STOP with the identity thing, it’s killing you! I don’t self ID, I think it is crippling and self hatred. I LOVE MY QUANTUM REALITY! Are the masks in your paintings another form of identity? DANIEL: The masks represent our transitions from what the world labels us to what we really are at the core. What you think of me is not really what I am. Are feelings facts or fleeting ego? I’ve always been obsessed with masks from every region & time period. Aztec masks, African masks. The everyday masks we wear to get through this experience. The world is trying to kill us. The cigarette companies, the alcohol companies, the fast food companies. Where do we draw the line and just be us in a world of ignorance? Is the mask permanently glued on our faces? That’s why we titled a painting, and called our last New York show, “Is That Your Real Meat Face?” TONY: Everybody mentions masks. They are not masks! I reveal what is under masks!!! How has this project unmasked the relationship between the two of you? DANIEL: It has made us more in tune with what the other is going through at the present moment. Being an artist, actor, model, hooker, waitress, it’s all time. Tony and I are hustling and trying to have fun, feed our families, staying one step ahead of the landlord and the law and surviving the best we can. Moonlighting is a part of the hustling game, do you consider yourselves more artists now than actors or models? DANIEL: I think any good, interesting actor is an artist and writer regardless. When you hire me for your movie or your TV show, you get a perspective, a point of view. I live my life with a box of colours that I drag from mystery to mystery. I’ve never been straight off the bus from the mid-west. I am not an L.A. fuck doll. TONY: Fuck all that model and actor bullshit!!! It’s a monkey’s job, and it’s getting to be just as glamorous as working at Der Wienerschnitzel. I was born an artist, I just had to give myself permission to go for it. I have lots to do while I’m still sucking air, and I’d like to leave some hot form of legacy for my children. I look at living life as an art form— it’s not just the obvious, “Hey this is my art thingy!” I am an artist in every minute of my existence. I could be painting, making clothes, gardening, cooking, acting, sexing, taking a crap, whatever. I am an artist. A crap, huh? Well, speaking more figuratively, what does the creative process drives out of you? DANIEL: The hilarity of heartbreak. Travelling around the world making movies. In love, in hate, awake or asleep. With money and without money. How come I’ve always been so fucking weird? Figuring out what I am going to do with the rest of my life. The demons! The hope and the regret. TONY: Vomitous layers of gut, bile and plaque! I believe in the exorcism of the creative process, especially while painting. I’ve gotten so worked up I have cried while painting, jerked off—not on my painting—sang, laughed … Really, the best is the shit it drives out of my head!!! Once it’s all driven out and it’s there on the canvas, what do you see as being beautiful in both your art and art in genreral? DANIEL: I think beauty is a feeling. I find beauty in the action of the moments, movements, and the attack on the canvas. Have you ever been punched really hard in the face? The first thing you see is what’s most absurdly beautiful. TONY: Beauty is when someone is screaming their feelings out in the art. I just know beauty when I feel it! Last question, what do you hope your audience takes away from viewing your collection? TONY: I hope it inspires you all to speak, loudly, your mind. Whenever, wherever, and to stir up the muck!!! PEACE, YOU HOT FUCKERS!!!
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BUTT out!
This is from the latest edition of BUTT magazine, The Straight Issue. Photography by Robin Black, Paintings by Mr. Ward and Daniel Louis Rivas.
Interesting interview inside, you betta run to your local gay magazine supplier to get your own copy!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Unedited & Uncensored Tokion Interview by Takeaki Yamazaki
Tokion July 2009
Article/interview with Mr. Tony Ward and Daniel Rivas
Permission: To give ones self the consent and allowance to freely
explore the infinite array of experience that life offers. Artists
Tony Ward and Daniel Rivas aim to scream this message directly at the
audience with their new collection of paintings. Embarking on a
collaborative journey of creativity together, they’re making it a
point to explore the relationship of two artists, one medium, the
process of creation through autodidactic means, and inspiring everyone
they come across along the way, somehow, in some form.
Having found success in the worlds of modeling and acting, both Tony
and Daniel are discovering how their past experiences have shaped the
creative minds they are today. Exploring the notions permission,
identity, relationships, and the magical act of transforming energy
from our emotional spectrum into creativity, they evoke a unique world
that surfaces from each canvas. This most recent endeavor of theirs,
collaborative painting, sends them preparing for an upcoming European
tour.
Take - This sort of collaborative painting is relatively unheard of in
the art world. The process in each individual, which meets on a canvas
together, creates an interesting situation.
Tony - I love our art, I love what we do, I love the energy we have.
It’s awkward, it’s uncomfortable; we’re painting over each
other’s shit [work], mostly me. And not everyone is going love what
we do, there are always going to be people who hate you, without
reason, without even knowing you, they’ll hate what you represent,
hate what you do and what you stand for. And then there are people who
will love you and love what you do. And to me, they’re all the same.
I don’t care, It doesn’t matter what anyone has to say about what
we do. Bottom line, I’m vomiting on a canvas, I’m getting rid of my
garbage, and I’m processing. That is the process! There’s my
process, maybe it sucks for you, but there it is.
Daniel - And we have fun. We have a good time doing it; we have a good
time collaborating. This is just another, very important, avenue that
we decided to journey and travel down together. We’ve developed a
friendship and it feels really natural. A lot of things in this world
feel unnatural, and you know it, you know it in your heart. You know
when something is off.
Ta- How did it feel when you two first got together? How did you first
get together and decide to collaboratively paint?
T- I got a part in this movie and we hadn’t seen each other in about
5 years and I asked him if he knew an acting coach to help me to
prepare for this film. His acting coach lives downstairs, so we hung
out more often and one day he called me about this show for Ghetto
Gloss [a gallery in LA].
D - It all started in here [in this room]. Just brainstorming for
hours. I’d always been painting, I just called Tony and said lets
have a show. It was getting close to Xmas, why not? I knew Tony had
done some photography so I thought I’d show my paintings and he’d
just show his photography. But then from that, it became this…
T- It was his suggestion. He said, “let’s do some paintings!” I
had my hesitations about it…
D- It all just led to this, it evolved quickly too. From the early
paintings to what’s happening right now. And it’s amazing. It’s
magic because it really hasn’t been that long.
Ta- You both start on this entirely different path and suddenly end up
here.
T- I think its genius. It’s a ploy of sorts and it’s quite weird. I
don’t really like Andy Warhol, I mean I respect the entity and the
energy of that period in time, to launch pop art, it’s impressive,
its pretty amazing. I’m not saying that we’re doing that, but this
is pure energy. His energy and my energy, combined together. Saying
we’re artists and we’re working on the same canvas. Here we are.
Ta- That says a lot about your process, which is not just a solitary
venture in each of you separately, but rather the meeting of both, the
collaboration, which results in some interesting art. Can you
elaborate on this unique process?
D- It’s inspired thought. Often we second-guess ourselves. When it
comes to acting and painting I try to be there, in that moment, and
not think too much. In the rest of my life, I’ll see a pretty girl
and hesitate and Tony will tell me to be more like I am when I’m
creating art with life. It’s what I’m trying to figure out…
T- Yeah, and the whole thing is that there’s no figuring it out. You
just have to do it. I view it in a more primitive way. I’ll look at
it [a painting] and read it, tune into the feeling of whatever is
going on and then I see it. Sometimes I’ll start painting around it
and it’s so awkward. Like a sculpture, you just keep chipping away
because you know the masterpiece is somewhere inside of it, so you
keep chipping away. I’ll look at something, and every time I feel
like I can’t touch it. I question, where do I go? What do I do? And
then this guy, he just attacks it, he’ll put a face right in the
middle of the canvas, BAM!
Ta- There are bound to be people who will have a certain perspective
of you two for not having certain credentials or training from
institutions. On your website, you speak of the autodidactic ability
and process you both explore. Knowing that your art comes from a
autodidactic process that you’re capable of discovering, does this
empower you and your art?
T- It’s a bit crazy, I know it’s powerful because I believe in
what’s going on inside of me. I believe we all have it, we’re all
artists in some way. Whatever we’re working on, I believe that that
is our art. We’re like little bombs, compressed. And if you allow
yourself to open up and to be open to a number of things, then you
don’t confine yourself to one specific thing, one specific way of
thinking. I think...I think I think a lot. [laughs]
Ta- Knowing you have this autodidactic capability gives you the
ability to approach creativity from a different vector than someone
who is simply classically trained. Creativity has always come from the
process of problem solving. You’d never confront these problems and
experiences without having chosen these particular paths.
D- All that’s happened in our lives has brought us here, to this
moment. The art world politics don’t really bother me. Those people
who may question our process, about it not being classically trained.
Well, were the cavemen? Artists I love like Francis Bacon and Basquiat
and the idea of Schnabel and Diego Rivera. I just have a healthy
belief in what we’re doing, in our art, in what we’re creating. The
politics don’t really bother me.
T- I look at his [Danny’s] stuff and might see and say that it may be
a bit like Basquiat, but the more I get to know him, the more I see
that its so purely him, it’s ridiculous. I love Picasso, I’d read
about people like Telus Lautrec, Egon Schiele, and Bacon, I was really
moved by these kinds of artists. They were insane. They lived this
crazy tortured life where they just had to do it [create art]! Now I
don’t like looking at inspiration at all, I don’t like looking at
other artist’s works. I want it to come from visions from inside my
own mind. But whatever moves you. Whatever you gotta do, you gotta do
it. What strikes you. I’ll never look at one thing and say this is
me, this is what I do, this is how I do it. My interests fall so
vastly wide that that exploration feels more free to me. That’s the
way I want to go about and do it. I’m also such an anal perfectionist
that that can also get in the way of me, if I start thinking too much.
And it’s like what you said about the autodidacticism, that process
of how to do things, it can be such an agonizing process, [at one
point] it was hurting my stomach trying figuring things out. Like how
to paint this fur for this painting [a painting of a Civet with a mask
titled, “Civet doesn’t know the masquerade is over].
Ta- Is there any real identity connected to the paintings?
D- There is, it’s that imprint from our parents, from our DNA. My dad
is a singer and an artist, I just started forming a relationship with
him, I hadn’t seen him in about 20 years but there’s something
I’m channeling that I don’t even know that I know. And why I’m
attracted to crosses, and this Aztec imagery. I grew up Jewish, I had
a bar mitzvah. Some of my earliest memories are of being in churches
and being fascinated by Jesus and often we don’t even know. It’s
backwards its forwards.
Ta- I read that you spent some time as an ‘artist in residence’ at
Herman Brood’s atelier. What did you bring back from that experience?
D- I brought back a lot. It was a privilege to be the only American
artist to be allowed to paint in his studio after he died. I didn’t
know much about him, then I spent more time in Holland. I had a lot of
encounters with his ghost. It changed my art, just from research and
being in that space and talking to people who knew him.
Did it change your technique or your vision? Or have an entirely
different affect on you?
D- Not really the technique, more so it changed my vision. A lot of
what we’re talking about is how he actually lived. He was this freaky
guy, he was a drug addict and a rock n roll guy, and he was out there,
walking around with a parrot on his shoulder, he lived it. I’m still
processing that whole experience, there’s something I find very
kinetic, there’s a deep connection between me and Herman somehow.
Even though it’s such a different culture and such a different life,
being there, painting at his studio with his paintings and his bed and
his porno collection. It was wild.
T- I don’t know much about Herman’s art work but I like what I’ve
seen. But talking about vision, Danny showed me this article about
Dash Snow and it talked about his creative process, about his
alternative lifestyle. It’s an odd dichotomy because we don’t use
drugs as part of our process. And I look at artists and would think
you have to suffer or you gotta be crazy. I went through a lot of my
life thinking I was crazy. My dad, my brother, both a little off, so I
thought I was crazy. I was reading this book by Osho, ‘Joy,’ and it
basically says that there are certain things that we do, certain
affirmations that we have to STOP. NOW. These such expressions of
ourselves, we manifest. So I stopped calling myself crazy, and stopped
caring what other people thought about me, just stopped. And I knew
other crazy people, really crazy people. How this relates to the art,
Van Gogh cut his own ear off; I’m not going to think such things are
going to affect my art. In my head I think I have to be this weird
eccentric artist and wear my pants backwards, wear only red hats
everyday, or have a fake puppet on my shoulder. Do I have to be that
dude to be taken seriously as an artist?
Ta- Both of you being actors, I’m sure you’re aware of the mask
play that is a very significant exercise to explore identity in
theater. Having masks in nearly every painting, what do these masks
have to say for you and about you as artists?
D- I wear so many different masks and even I still have the question,
who the fuck are we? I love masks. Aztec masks, Mayan masks, African
masks; and we’re always wearing masks, all of us.
T- [we wear] Masks on masks, layers of masks. We wear different faces
all the time. It’s the façade we’re giving to the world. Different
parts of our personality come out over that initial facade. Layers of
crud over other layers begin to build up. In the work, it comes out.
Underneath all this, this is who we are, and it’s really not cute.
D- I’ve learned a lot from Tony. No matter what situation he’s in,
he’s himself. It’s tough to be like that in this world. We’re
always here and there. We constantly change but stay the same. He’s
his own greatest work of art. We both hang out and act like little
kids, we have fun. Sometimes you hang out with friends and have to put
on this mask for this person or that person. It’s always fun to
rediscover the joy and freedom in creativity.
T- I’ve been stone cold sober for going on 5 years now. More than
ever I want to be a freak. I want to be freer than I’ve ever felt
before. And I feel it now. It’s about fighting against the ideology
of who and what I am. This came from my mother. You have to not hate
and just be free. Just express yourself the way you have to express
yourself without worry of others opinions. We’re so caught up with
eating right, looking right, smelling right, it’s crippling.
Everything is very PC now. We have facades when it’s actually really
grim today. I don’t want to ignore that, not with myself, not with my
art. I have loved ones I care about, I want to inspire and go out and
be inspired. I’m a cheerleader for insanity. And I’m fascinated by
kids, they need guidance.
D – and kids need real hope.
Where would you say this art comes from to display such an open
nakedness? Are you taking off your masks?
D – It’s straight from the heart, for sure. It comes from places
we’ve all been some only some of us have been. I’ve been through
addiction, heartbreak, love, a family dinner. Acting is someone
else’s work, it’s going to change in the editing room. this is
ours. They’re moments, they’re experience, they’re priceless.
There’s this magical thing that’s happening right now with our art
and our paintings. It’s a mirror to nature.
Ta- It’s sensation. It’s death, its happiness, its love, its
disparity, all at the exact same moment.
T – You hear artists talk about this. We do a painting. All the joy,
the bliss and fucking frustration, all that effort, is done once you
put the brush down. Then it’s freedom, it’s there. I did it. Maybe
it’ll burn but the joy of it is that it’s there. As an artist, I
hope that this piece of art moves someone so much that they want it on
their wall.
D- I believe in magic
Ta- What would you say magic is to you?
D- Magic is a chain of accidents and coincidences that become
something tangible. We get together and create magic.
T- That book, ‘Many lives, many masters,’ says something like,
‘everything is a message.’ Birds in the sky, bombs falling, people
dying. Everything is a message, a mirror, to show us ourselves. When I
was painting this baby it got real heavy, I started to cry. I started
thinking of the real child in this picture I was looking at, the guts
hanging out of its side, the skull flayed open. When I hear about
people murder and unconsciously harming others, it’s a mirror. I know
the pain. I relate to the anger, I get them, I relate to them. I can
be judgmental at times, it’s an ugly trait I’ve been fucked by
society and people. But there’s also this immense magical universe
that conspires to make things happen. I believe in energy, I believe
in the universe. It’s a candy store and I get to choose what I want
to dip into. I am free to do what I want to do. And there’s a direct
response from the universe. I was in Japan; I was walking with my
pregnant wife. There’s this little old lady coming towards us down
this narrow street and I’m in a rush, I’m frustrated and I step out
into the street. I’m hit by a bus, knocked out of my wife’s hand,
and sent flying 15 feet. I get up and start yelling. But then I took a
second and realized what was really going on, that it wasn’t the lady
or the bus, but rather it was me. I learned to take that second to
look, to learn to really slow down and pay attention. We all have to
take a step back and look at life, see it.
Ta- Putting yourselves through such a process riddled with sensations
both good and uncomfortable while pushing the edges, the limits; how
do these movements affect somebody? How do you intend for them to
affect us?
T- I want it to give us all permission. If anything, I want it to show
people that if these knuckleheads [us] could do it, so can you. Good
luck too. If anything, be a doer, have a goal everyday and work
towards those goals.
D- …And being unique. A lot of people don’t have their own voice,
and we’re these two guys with our own voice, collaborating and making
this unique voice.
T - Especially kids these days. We have our family, our town, our
society, and kids are being pounded with information these days. Their
brains are like little networks, I can’t imagine how they think. And
this permission is educating. We’re all here to learn, forever. And I
can split off and take whatever idea I have and create. It’s a big
lesson and a good lesson, to share yourself 100%, let that inspire
other people, be excited that its inspiring other people and don’t be
afraid that people aren’t going to like you.
Ta- To simply let go.
T- Yes. The key is permission. I’m a free human being, and if I’m
not free, I’m living like this. Its so simple, but we don’t know
that, we don’t know that it’s that easy to simply let go of
ourselves. I did the Belvedere vodka photo shoot with Terry
[Richardson] and he’s like, get naked. I’m in a restaurant and next
thing I’m naked in this restaurant pouring vodka on me. And my mind
is saying yeah its fun, but is my dick small? We’re born naked, its
how we are. It’s unnatural to be worrying about my length. But when
you just do it, it’s in front of everyone. It’s right there, it’s
permission. Next thing you know there’s 10 people naked too.
23 years down the line of time, the unborn audience: What
understanding would you hope for them to gain from your creations?
D- That love slays the darkness.
T- I like that. It’s true. The essence, when it’s boiled down, life
is about teaching and learning. When someone looks at this in 23
years, someone might look at these and wonder if there’s anything
political or social going on. But it’s in the permission you give
yourself to be free, to create. You look at the artwork and say, I can
do this. I think about this entire conversation, you get permission,
you get permission to have a goal, and then to work towards it with a
focus, you can go off but you can get back on, that’s part of the
permission to be free. But to be on that journey and keep going.
Ta- Your art tells a story, the story of that journey, of your lives,
here, today. There’s been a few paradigms in art that are only part
of the story, part of the evolution of what you’re telling, what
you’re creating. What would you say that story is?
D- my first thought is that, I want to walk in the light. I’ve walked
in darkness for so long, a junkie, a liar, a thief. And now its
important for me that I walk in the light, fuck the darkness, I’ve
been there, its in my closet, I don’t want to live there.
T- I’ve talked about it concerning art. It’s an extension of the
idea of not needing other artists to be inspired. The fact other
artists are doing, if I like the outcome or not doesn’t matter, the
fact they did it is what matters. I believe, what I want to believe,
is that I’m a recorder in my time, today. If someone asked what my
art was about, I want it to say, ‘this is my experience, here, today,
in 2009.’ I’m not reaching back, other artists had their time.
Artists like Da Vinci, they were recording what was going on in their
lives, then. It’s transformation. I’m going to listen to metal and
skate and paint until I’m 90. I want to do until I drop dead. My last
expression, hopefully, will be me taking a picture of myself on my
deathbed, the ultimate self-portrait.
Ta- At this point in time everything is possible. Everything is
potential. How do you go about capturing a moment? Transforming the
potential into the actual?
D- There are times where I won’t paint for months and times when
I’ll finish 5 [paintings] in a week. Now it’s more disciplined
working together. Capturing is about not thinking about it, being in
it, in the present moment and not so much in your head.
T- That’s when it can get to be annoying. In the action of doing
this, people react quickly. We did this bunny painting and people
suggested we do a series of them. Suddenly we’re influenced and I’m
trying to tell him how to make these bunny paintings. But what I try
to do is close my eyes and see something. Confront what’s in front of
me and not let my thoughts get in the way. And I have fuck-all
technique, the process of the autodidacticism is rough, he’s seen me
get frustrated.
D- But he can paint shit that I can’t even imagine. It’s awesome!
Ta- Through your collaboration and the shared relationship, creativity
has taken everything to a place where ego has all but vanished. How
would you like to take things to another level?
T- To really start to deface one another’s work. Because honestly,
it’d really hurt. I’m really detailed and anal and to think about
working on something for a while and then just watching Danny splatter
over it would hurt for a second, but then it’d settle in and we’d
feel it and it’d be okay. I think that would be an interesting
process to explore. I appreciate what a lot of artists are doing, I
like it, but I’ve never really seen anything like what we’re doing.
It doesn’t make it better or worse than anyone else’s [art] but
I’m grateful. It makes me feel easier to know that we’re doing
something, to know we’re doing this.
D- We like what each other is doing, we’re pretty good at that, at
liking each other’s stuff. It’s magic.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
Blog Six, Scene Six , Act Six
Tony & I were in New York city for several events. One is the launch of our Tokion Magazine cover that we are very proud of. The shoot for that was great, Except I drank to many vodka martinis the night before at this strange underground Russian speakeasy like place, and I was kind of a mess in the beginning of the shoot. I was still on LA time so the world felt like it was going to swallow me up in it's vortex and many black holes. Early morning not so good. Pictures came out great through. Note to self no more Vodka Martini's while exploring space travel. Also watch out for 2012.
The people in NY showed us a lot of love on this trip. The weather in NYC was bipolar. Rain one second and then the sun was beaming another. We had a small exhibition of ten of our paintings that went really well at this gallery/ boutique called EVA on the Bowery. Everyone came out for the show and expressed real genuine interest for the art. Everyone was really enthusiastic about the show except this awful women named Jocelyn Cohan, Who claims to be an art adviser to no one. Isn't that ironic. The name says it all. She caused a scene at the art show and compared Tony & my paintings to a derivative version of Thunder Cats meets Basquiat. How subversive. How the negative criticism fuels the fires. She was cute so we didn't egg her. We are creating masterpieces here lady!
We also did a couple photo shoots & interviews. Tony almost bit my ear off in one of the pictures. He's such a method model. Look out Van Gogh. I had to get rushed to Lenox Hill hospital for 13 stitches in the ER. I am alright now. Scar's give us character. People in New York make shit happen. LA takes it's time. I will always be a New Yorker living & painting in LA. It's funny all the artists we met have really been gracious & warm. Here from my window in Valley Village I can't see a artist for miles. I'd like to meet some more California artists with a similar sensibility's. I'd like to pitch a tent and have a 24 hour punk rock painting orgy of late sixty's serial killer revival. It's a great place to create and take a nap while tanning.
We also filmed some stuff for our TV show. Not sure when & where it'll be on. But it was fun &
I think we got some great stuff. And this country would be very lucky to have our experiences filmed and broadcast for your viewing pleasure. Maybe our greatness will rub off on you. Joshua Von Brown keeps it old school.Calvin Klein dressed us for the interview portions of the show. Very fancy.
They were very cool to us, and now I have some new clean white underwear & black socks. They also invited us to this fabulous party on the newly unveiled High Line. It was an interesting party. It was not as awkward as some of the parties we've attended recently filled with snobby zombie models and wall street bankers. Danny Devito was at the CK party..I mean how bad could it be. He threw momma from the train. Oh too be one of those beautiful people..Wait a minute.
Nevermind..At least we are both well hung.
Francis Bacon show was dynamite at the MET. That's what painting is about. Putting the pain back in painting.
Canal street smells bad, The cats and the rats are in a constant turf war for supremacy of the streets of China Town. but the hospitality is heartwarming. And you can buy a veggie sesame pancake for a dollar. Check it out..Oh yeah Delta airlines sucks. Are bags were soaking wet when we got home..Ok, off to see my sisters band The Black Tales play the Viper Room tonight. They are awesome. The bass player is rad. ..More zombies expected..Forecast at 11pm.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
EVA New York presents Mr.Ward and Daniel Louis Rivas
"IS THAT YOUR REAL ... MEATFACE?"
opening June 12, from 7 to 9 pm
355 Bowery Btwn 3rd +4th street
www.evanewyork.net
From the Opening
TOKION Magazine, Edition June 2009
The cover shot feature Mr. Ward and Mr. Rivas recreating one of their collaborative paintings called GIVE ME HEAD.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
MR.WARD Interview i-D Magazine , No. 296, February 2009
"Before I even arrived in L.A. there were pictures of my naked ass on guys´ refrigerator doors all across the country."
Tony Ward, one of the most prolific and recognisable male models of, well, ever, is standing outside the lobby of the Culver Hotel in Los Angeles, talking about being pigeonhold. Over his career, Tony has been the subject of some iconic male erotic imagery, shot by the haute vanguard of fashion photographers, from Herb ritts to Steven Meisel, Greg Gorman to Jack Pierson. "So that´s who people expect me to be," Tony says. "I meet people and they go, "He Tony, are you gay, Tony? Are you straight, Tony?" And I say, " Hey, I´m Tony, nice to meet you." I don´t define myself , I don´t de-fine myself at all. I do what the fuck I want when I want and it upsets people some of the time!" He pauses before adding, "A lot of the time." For a guy who carries so many titles - model, gay icon, photographer, painter, actor, producer, director, husband, father - he certainly dislikes labels. For a guy who, for more tham 25 years, and most notably in the early ´90s when he was dating Madonna, had his personal parts on public display, he surely doesn´t like to be, ahem, tied down. "I don´t give a fuck about that. The nudity, the sexuality out there, look, it´s like an appendage, it´s like a finger. I don´t see how people can stomach the torture of prisoners or the slaughter of innocent people all over the world and even raise an eyebrow over some sex."
During his relationship with Miss Ciccone, Tony was featured in several of the singer´s videos including Erotica nad Justify My Love, as well as in the titanic, rare and thus exorbitantly prices SEX book. Featuring seeming candids of the couple and others simulating all manners of congress, photographed by Meisel, the book caused quite a stir at the time of its release. "It´s funny," Tony says, "at that time we did the book it was shocking, now it´s like something you´d see in any European magazine." So how did it come about? "When I was with Madonna we were exploring, she was exploring, we were exploring things together and we felt like people were ready for a punch in the face. Youz realise when Madonna does something it explodes, all over the world. It was really nice to be a small boy on the Tsunami that is Madonna. really, I honor her." I wonder aloud if he minded his supplicant role in the videos and book, the submissive image. He smirks, then, referring to one of the most notorious photos in the collection, laughs, "she had her face in my ass, man!"
A veritable symbol of masculinity himself shirks the description. He doesn´t like the negative connotations, the social expectations, the arbitrary criteria. "I prefer to be a man," he says, "That means providing for my kids, teaching them about life, you know, stepping up to whatever comes your way." Having recently lost several family members, including his father, within the spam of a few months Tony was forced to seriously consider manhood. "I thought I was man before, but when you lose the people who tought what that means it´ll wake you up. But wehen I was out in the forrest, spreading my father´s ashes, I felt this really tribal, primitive thing, being a part of the cycle of life. I felt connected. to my teachers and to those I teach. I knew that someday, if I´m lucky, my children can do that for me and I jst felt ´ahhh,´you know? Peace."
The cycle describes by his carrer as one of the sexiest men alive began when, as he was failing out of college, he was discovered by a scout on campus. The man suggested that Tony´s figure, toned from his hobbyist body-building practices, along with his striking Romanesque face, would make for success as a model. "I was like, ´ah, whatever, man.´I thought I was the uggliest dude in the world, you know?" Not surprisingly a host of others - including a model manager - disagreed, protested even. "They said, ´No, we´re gonna make you a star,´ and I said, ´Really?´ And they said,´Yeah!´, so I said, ´all right.´" They set to work straight away, sending pictures of Tony, both clothed and nude, around the country. That led to his meeting legendary photographer Bruce Weber who, immediately entranced with his subject, created a series of arresting images. Surely you remember the black-and-white shot of Tony, statuesque in a pair of tighty-whiteys, with the Empire State Building behind him - portentous of a massive carrer to come. Among Tony´s earliest supporters, his first friend in L.A. in fact was photographer Rick Castro who persuaded Herb Ritts to cast Tony in a shoot that would later appear in Ritt´s first book. "Herb´s saying,´I don´t know, his nose is all funky,´ and Ricky is saying,´nah, man, you´ll see, he´s got something.´" Well that ´soemthing´proved to be so intoxicating and inspiring for the greatest eyes of the time, it became a wellspring for some of the most famous images of the epoch. It would again be Castro who would give Tony his first film role, in the now gay cult´s movie, Hustler White. "It´s a color, like fire-engine red," says Castro. "Hustler-white [The hustlers] wear these white jeans and as the cars drive down the street with their headlights the white illuminates and shows their basket really nicely." Of the experience Tony says, "It was fantastic, a gift," but of Hollywood´s reaction to his performance as a hustler, "Well, there is a lack of imagination. Same story, once you do one thing that must be who you are, to them." For Castro, who remains one of Ward´s most frequent collaborators as well as representing him as a painter and photographer at his gallery in Hollywood, it´s like this: "Tony´s the best example of the model as an artist. I´m not the only photographer who has become obsessed with him. A lot of very famous photographers have become fixated on him, obsessed with him, and created some really strong and famous images. Because of his energy."
That energy is brimming over right now. Now at age 45 Tony still shifts and flits around like a pre-teen. Even as he talks st length about his regime for detoxifying the organs (Jordan Rubin´s book Patient Heal Thyself is his functioning gospel) he´s full of bile and vitriol for puritanism, politicians (save Obama) and the passage of Proposition 8 banning same-sex marriages in California. He´s combustible and passionate. By turns he expounds on Buddhism, Deepak Chopra, Osho, anarchy, death, power, control, sex, love and art. He has a million plans, projects, and irons in the fire. A short film, insired by La Jetée, which he is producing for Bailey Hat Company; then a feature film he´s producing and acting in; also another film, The Story of Jen, in which he plays the lead, presently on the festival circuits; oh, an internet forum for filmmakers; a fashion line he´d like to do with Alexander McQueen... "I don´t want to just be a picture in a magazine. I have some things to say,. In fact, I have too much to say1 I´m doing a photo-autobiography with [art director] Sam Shahid. I have a ton of material and I love the idea of a pictorial biography to tell the story." He shakes his head, marvelling at it all for the moment. "Man," he says, "I´m just trying to work so hard I can´t see straight." He´s been out in the sun all day, working on paintings for an upcoming show, and apologises for being dead tired but the way he talks with such vigour I wonder if his mint tea isn´t spiked with something just a little more.... substantial. Not likely. Tony´s been sober going on four years now. "I was an alcoholic, or, rather, I am an alcoholic - I´m a twelve stepper and all that." He readily cops to a hard diet of hard drugs once upon a time. But rock bottom come in the form of "trying to paint, trying to be this painter, jacked on heroin, listening to Janes Addiction and just nodding out in the middle of the painting. When I woke up I was just like, ´This is a joke. You´re stuck, stuck in this ridiculous idea of yourself.´ I was trying to be this thing instead of just being me, you know?"
That´s when he decided to open it up. Keep changing, trying, exploring. Stop defining himself as one thing instead of another. He calls himself the antimodel, if anything, an artist. "Yeah, just an artist," he agrees. And he´s much kinder to his body now too. Aside from the raw diet and naturopathic cleanses he just joined a gym, but doesn´t do anything too strenuous. "I walk like those dorks, high stepping on the treadmill and I don´t use the weights like you´re supposed to. I just kinda swing´em around like this." He leaps up and twists his body around, whipping his arms this way and that, "like I´m swinging a battle axe."
For Tony Ward "Life is this crauy groovy canvas," and he´s looking for every way to continue filling it up with his boundless energy. "Plenty of models, plenty of guys who have done this thing," he says, "they´re still around, old dinosaurs like me... I keep working, it´s kinda mind-blowing to me. It´s not about loving it anymore. It´s almost like a duty. To me, my last photograph is going to be a self portrait as I drop dead, you know," affecting a death rattle and slumbing over in his chair, "click!"
http://www.tony-ward.com/
Prose for Ho´s wit Tec 9 afterglows
It's the first kiss that cracks me up.
It's the first kiss.
That chokes me up
It's the first kiss that seals my wants
I've got nausea from waiting.
Have a phone cord hanging from my neck from praying.
All I am saying
My world has gone splat from your taste that I'm craving.
It's the first kiss that messes me up.
It's the first kiss
That chokes me up.
It's the first kiss that seals my wants.
A cup of beer
No more fear.
It' all in my head.
Words will never end.
It's all in my head.
Mother Mary cry’s.
Drowning in my bed from your all your bullets lead.
It's the first kiss that cracks me up.
It's the first kiss
That chokes me up.
It's the first kiss that seals my wants.
To much trouble.
It will never work.
Lived much faster
And it's getting worse.
Looking for action.
I spared no lover.
Looking for action
I got no other.
Lets invent the past.
Too many accidents to dent the facts.
You won't catch me sleeping when the fleeting comes
You wont catch me needing when my ego's numb.
Running with scissors
Running with scissors to kill the exterior.
There was saints and sinners in my mirror
Kiss's and disguise’s to brighten the interior.
Tuesday Night.
Can't sleep tonight.
Tuesday night and I don't feel alright.
Tuesday night too many lose ends to bear.
Thought I felt something but it's easier not to care.
Times of this and Times of that.
Fallen and swollen.
I can't look back.
My guts and pride on the mat flat.
Stalk me.
Just my luck.
I failed.
I failed again.
It was a pretty gun.
It was a pretty town.
Her looks were quiet a sight then
Not sure where she is now.
My fathers knife always loomed bright.
In the back of my head.
You were always saying “How we should settle down this time”.
A sleepy place to live.
With ambition on the wall.
Fireplace next to the shovel that was used to bury my desire.
Let's scream!!
Are will is the only thing that makes sense.
Now.
A tricky place to dream
A unruly place to scream.
It's a train wreck of denial.
It's only this sail that keeps me idle.
Nights of Vietnam.
Empty Years.
It's all so subtle.
Magic Footprints.
Garlic breath
Creep show Tendencies.
It's a nice place for guys and girls to sport Bullet proof vests.
A Dead Star in the making
A Forgotten Time that's got me shaking.
It's not safe, But I like to venture out for the taste.
Streets call me
But that's only the coffin in which I was born that off's me.
It all use to bore me.
But now it's all I ever regret.
The awkward silence passes and I grasp to hang on to this violence.
The things we did and the things we saw.
Nothing left in this old town hall.
Remember me as I was in my youth.
Gorgeous and unmistakable in my bullet proof vest.
Sinners in our Youth Speak.
Shave your legs tonight and say goodbye.
Your the one I want to eat.
Your the one I want to devour slow.
Moonlight slide.
Can show you the ruler if you want to grow.
Sleep away the truck stops in my car as I drive.
Too the other side of night, man.
There can only be one of us inside at a time.
It's all me.
I decide.
The Time to smile and sigh.
The time to gargle and say goodnight.
I'm only sleeping this one.
Only running with a crucifix’s for fun.
Outside of my wreck.
Tiptoes false eyelashes lick.
Punches at midnight.
All and all the fight is with the night.
Monday, February 9, 2009
DANIEL LOUIS RIVAS Interview for an obscure Dutch Mag..
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Half Asleep, Half Awake, Half in Love & Half in Hate
I could take this time and look to the past. Through the beauty and the terminal failures.
The collapse of harmonious union reflected in my sight.
The seeds I have sown are slowly growing through the ever stationed confusion.
I am an agent of the underworld.
Here to revel what it's like down there.
She's forever a wispier...A sullen folklore tale of a forgotten time.
Swimming to find shelter against the replica and the reptilian garments of our uniform of choice
What we were together in the nocturnal coma of our common births.
God knows we had to be separated at sometime.
The beasts of the night sky's need feeding options of another kind.
The gallows' await the judgment.
Forever feverishly intertwined against this backdrop of a lifetime.
My confusion still dreams.....You must remember this.
MY SICK FRICKIN DICK ...
A note to my penis:
Why can i not tell that muther fvcker what i think about him, and him not look at me with the blank frozen drippy eyed stare that freezes my heart solid as the flames of heavain!... I love him dearly butt i'm gonna choke every ounce of goo from his voluptuous neck... thats a promise my lovely!
... mr.w...